moshfloorkiller

nobody will ever know how the world works.
DEAL WITH IT.
there is no higher power, higher meaning, greater good, etc...
life is life.
when we die, we die.
i've been asked how i get up in the morning.

it's easy; i have a life that i live for myself. not for any god, for me. i have goals i want to achieve and things i want to do before my life comes to an end. i don't need some brainwashing religion and false gods to worship to get up in the morning and live my life to the fullest.


not everything can be explained.

probably that time i took like, 12 robitussen pills and played lazer tag. only i didn't really, i spent almost the entire time running around aimlessly and getting shot.
then i proceeded to spend an hour in a friend's bedroom staring at the ceiling, thinking i was legit in space.

most recently, though, was downing 9 drinks in 2 hours at a bar, taking the bus home and supposedly sitting on some guy's KFC leftovers (i didn't really) then spending the next day with my good friend Toilet Bowl.

i make good decisions, too.

 Finish this sentence: The last person I kissed...
is jay, before he left for work.

Would you be surprised if your most recent ex called you tonight?
i don't even have a recent ex.

Where were your hands last night at 11pm?
in a bag of animal crackers i presume.

Do you read magazines, or just look at the pictures
both.

Do you have any piercings?
ears stretched to 0g.

What was the last movie you watched?
i don't even remember.

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
yes

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
mhmm.

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
somewhat. i'm "spoiled" with a decent life and great family and friends. my parents have never spoiled me as far as buying me shit, but my grandmother certainly did.

What does your last text message say?
"i would just go with whatevers cheapest for now"
from jay, regarding a bike i want to buy. i disagree.

Did you sleep alone friday night?
nope.

This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
jay. it's been almost 3 years now.

Who was the last person you went out to eat with?
jay

Does it bother you when people try to make you jealous?
no?

Where is your dad?
probably at home

Have you ever been called beautiful?
yes

Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
maaaaybe the guy that i am engaged to and live with?
maybe.

Would you ever eat a bug for 1,000 dollars?
yes. that's a good amount of money just to eat what some countries consider a delicacy. 

Last time you laughed?
few minutes ago while watching Weeds.

What's your relationship with the person you texted last?
fiance

The last person you kissed, how many times have you cried in front of them?
probably a lot in the past almost 3 years.

Next time you will kiss someone on the lips?
tonight i assume when he's home from work.

Your phone is ringing. It's your ex. What do you say?
you're costing me long distance money?

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
another job.

What are you listening to?
nothing.

Why did your parents name you your name?
i don't know. my middle name is my great grandmother's first name though. she died a couple days before i was born. my mom went into labour at her funeral.

Whats your favorite color?
purple

Who's the last person you hugged?
jay

Do you have a bad habit?
not picking up after myself, nail biting.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yes

Would you rather have a smoothie or milkshake?
MCDONS TRIPLE THICK MILKSHAKEEEE.

Do you have any older siblings?
no siblings at all.

Do you hate it when you go over someone's house and do absolutely nothing?
it depends on who's house.

Do you get easily embarrassed?
somewhat.

How did you get your last bruise?
bumping into shit at work.

Think back in February, how was your love life then?
as good as it is right now.

Are you currently frustrated with someone?
not really.

What are you about to do after this?
maybe make a wrap. grilled veggies and ranch dressing.

Is there someone you will never forget?
i have a decent memory.

Did you ever waste too much time on a certain boy or girl?
of course. 

What's the very first thing you do when you wake up?
check the time.

Who's the last person that told you they loved you?
jay

Are you going out of town soon?
i may go to the Loblaws in Laval, because i hear they have chicken on sale. i consider that out of town since it's off the island of Montreal.
other than that, i am heading back home to Windsor october 9th-13th.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
yes. we talk almost every night, i can't imagine life without her.

Does anything hurt on your right now?
my toe.

Are there any posters on your wall?
surprisingly no. 

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
if i have to shower, probably 45 minutes. if no shower, 20 minutes?

What are the chances of you getting with the person you like?
i'm already with him.

What were you doing last night at midnight?
falling asleep.

Last December, what was your love life like?
great, we were celebrating our 2 year anniversary.

How many times have you told someone of the opposite sex you love them?
i can't count.

Would you ever become a vegetarian?
not by choice, but i kind of have by budget.

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
yes

Do you have nice eyes?
no.

What is something you need to go shopping for?
clothes, as usual.

Do you have a job?
a shitty one that hardly pays my bills for now.

Where were you on July 4th?
i believe i had some friends over because i was moving on the 6th.

When was the last time you smiled?
i don't know.

What woke you up this morning?
the cat.

Is your Myspace profile private?
no. i don;t use it though.

What's bothering you right now?
my apartment is a bit messy and i need groceries.

What's the last thing you purchased?
cat litter.

Are you hot or cold right now?
i'm good.

What time did you wake up this morning?
about 10.

Would you ever take someone back if they cheated on you?
no

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a Z?
rno

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
i used to, but all my friends and jay smoked so i've grown so used to it.

Are you a morning person or a night?
morning. 

What were you doing at 10pm?
on the internet?

Who was the last person you talked to?
jay

What would you do if the doctor told you that you were pregnant?
go home and tell jay that he's taking me to the nearest abortion clinic.

Are you wasting your time on someone?
no

Do you have a bad temper?
not really. i just get emotional easy.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
i hope i'll be married in 3 or 4 years.

You're dying in 10 seconds, what are your last words to your worst enemy?
i don't have enemies. i'm 19  years old.

Do you care if people hate you?
no

Has a song ever made you cry?
yes

Do you have to ask other people to open bottles for you?
sometimes.

Do you have any scratches on your body right now?
considering i have a very playful declawed cat, yes.

Are you wearing a necklace?
no

What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
plum sauce

Waiting for someone to call?
no

Last time you were disappointed?
today when i found out the bike i wanted was already sold.

What are you doing tomorow?
hopefully looking at another bike that i want.

i think my cat is seeing spirits in my house or some shit. she just sits there and stares at the wall, and kinda paws at it. creepy.


this weekend has been no biggie.
worked friday til 8:30, worked today 11-3.
had my last drivers ed lesson, passed with a 76%.
could have done better, fucked up some shit cause i was nervous about the final evaluation.
now i just need my g2 booked, but apparently it can take them 10-14 days just to BOOK it, which is absolute bullshit. i've been in drivers ed since APRIL and i'm just finishing the END of JULY. i'm calling on monday (because at that point my paperwork and marks will be handed in) and telling them to book it now. it's their fault it took so fucking long. my first instructor quit, so i had to wait 3 weeks til they found another guy to teach me, and he was booked up as it was so my lessons were pretty far apart. i could have had this shit done in a month, and my g2 by now. i'm basically going to HAVE TO PASS this on the first try or else i won't have a liscence to drive myself to SCHOOL everyday in september.
this is my biggest stressor right now. and it's really all i need.

completely changing subjects.

i feel like jay is being too needy. again. i told him i wanted to spend a week with other friends/myself and that we'd hang out eventually. he's being a bit whiny about it. i guess it annoys me. i just need a break from him. i still wanna talk, but i want a break from actually seeing him. it'll be good for us.

only 2 main things stressin' me out.
not too bad.

is my last shift at tim hortons.
6-10, come see me.

what i'll miss:

my regulars:
walking lady
extra large 4 sugar half a cream swiss chalet waitress lady (drive thru)
Jack, the absolute most sweetest old man in the entire universe.
Tarak, becuase he always calls ahead for his decaf so we can put on a pot.
Sesame bagel lady.
Jeep guy (drive thru, soooo hot.)
Jeep guy's brother (drive thru, not as hot.)
that weird couple that comes in, gets coffees and spends a good 3 hours there. i have alot of theories about them.
Larry. always gets a cheesecake and a can of pepsi. always makes a huge mess, always sings, and always makes me smile :]

baking shifts. fake baking to be exact, just chillin in the back. eating.
soulja boy with mandy in the back

what i will not miss:

my difficult regulars:
freshest pot lady (she came in tonight, i fucking hate her.)
loud truck guy (never shuts off his diesel truck at drive thru, so we can't hear a word he says.)
Radio Joe. he told me to fuck off once because he didn't have money on his tim card. not my favorite mentally challenged customer...
that jamaican guy who came through drive thru and told me i had beautiful eyes. he stopped coming though, maybe becuase the last time, he asked me if "it scares me that he thinks about me, and doesnt even know me", so i told him that yes it does and he can drive away now.
creepy indian guy.

drive thru times are gay.
working my ass off for 7.50 an hour is gay.
cleaning everything thats cleanable is gay.
Jon Gates
Marika.
the shedules that marika makes.
not getting time off.
working every weekend.
drive thru window in the winter
basically everything.


this has been the only job i have ever known.
i'm sure i'll miss it somehow.

since i cant put anything from my macbook onto my dads computer.
poop.

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